The New Normal

It's an icy day here in Dallas.  School/work has been cancelled.  The roads are iced over and the grocery store shelves are empty.  And that's the only thing that is not empty.  So is my bed.  The thing is, I am not single.  Posts on Facebook indicate that people are either tired of their kids or keeping warm, drinking wine, eating icy weather meals with their boo.  And I am just over here reading Facebook status'.  I did work out and make some warm weather comfort food, but the end of the night leaves me to miss my significant other.  This is when I am faced with the new normal.  Honey and I have been dating a year and we are abstaining from sex.  I may have mentioned this before.  This, along with our living situations, makes our relationship very unique for the time.  We only see each other on the weekends due to distance and we do not spend the night with each other.  This is all fine and great but sometimes, a girl just wants to be held.  With ice on the ground, we are stuck away from each other and I am struggling.  The things that I am used to in a relationship are nonexistent in this one.  I have a new normal.  It's kind of equivalent to being in a relationship in high school.  I appreciate the innocence and pureness of our relationship.  We are truly getting to know each other without sex around to cloud our judgement.  You don't typically find that these days.  However, the sexual energy causes its own conflict.  And the fact that I just want to be cuddled up with my boyfriend on an icy day is extremely frustrating.  I almost feel single.  But I am not.  Truth is, I have a great guy that is willing to wait.  I just have to keep my eyes on the bigger picture.  The reward in the end will be great.  I blame the idle mind of cabin fever.  Either way, I figured it would be best to write out my frustrations.  Writing always allows me to get out of myself and then see the bigger picture.  My new normal is our new normal.  And until that normal changes I got my teddy bear to cuddle with...I guess.

Until next time,
Truthfully Kayren