All my exes love me! No really it's true. They love me so much that they call me annually and try to meet up for dinner and/or lunch, to catch up on old times, but most importantly to see if I am still single. Never mind the fact that they have been in relationships and sometimes marriages, Kayren is always expected to stay single. Well this time around, they are getting a different response. The kid (me) is no longer single and no longer has time for that. However, any 'relationship' between an ex and myself after the fact has always been platonic. I don't typically go back when I declare that it's over. Lunch or dinner is typically just that. Even in past relationships, I admit I may have tipped out for a lunch or dinner meeting with an ex. No harm right? Wrong! The fact that I 'tipped' out means I was doing something wrong...dooming my relationship by adding secrets. In my quest for becoming a big girl, I realize that although the behavior may be completely honest to me, it ain't always so. Deep down inside, if the roles were reversed, I would be livid. Truth of the matter is, I am trying to build something here. And the truth starts within me. I have to make the decision to be open and honest with not only myself but my mate. I used to always keep one eye open for the next catch...something better. But I have learned that the attitude of greed will keep me bouncing from boo to boo and never satisfied. The better starts with me and how I love and show love. And reflecting on my past, I only showed a lot of love to myself. So I am sure my exes would love to have dinner with the woman I have become now. But at this time I can't give them the opportunity to meet her. The grass in my own yard is green and I am laying happily in the pasture.
Ladies: Do you experience Annual Ex-a-thon?
Truthfully Yours,
Kayren F
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