The Annual Ex-A-Thon

All my exes love me!  No really it's true.  They love me so much that they call me annually and try to meet up for dinner and/or lunch, to catch up on old times, but most importantly to see if I am still single.  Never mind the fact that they have been in relationships and sometimes marriages, Kayren is always expected to stay single.  Well this time around, they are getting a different response.  The kid (me) is no longer single and no longer has time for that.  However, any 'relationship' between an ex and myself after the fact has always been platonic.  I don't typically go back when I declare that it's over.  Lunch or dinner is typically just that.  Even in past relationships, I admit I may have tipped out for a lunch or dinner meeting with an ex.  No harm right? Wrong!  The fact that I 'tipped' out means I was doing something wrong...dooming my relationship by adding secrets.  In my quest for becoming a big girl, I realize that although the behavior may be completely honest to me, it ain't always so.  Deep down inside, if the roles were reversed, I would be livid.  Truth of the matter is, I am trying to build something here.  And the truth starts within me.  I have to make the decision to be open and honest with not only myself but my mate.  I used to always keep one eye open for the next catch...something better.  But I have learned that the attitude of greed will keep me bouncing from boo to boo and never satisfied.  The better starts with me and how I love and show love. And reflecting on my past, I only showed a lot of love to myself.  So I am sure my exes would love to have dinner with the woman I have become now.  But at this time I can't give them the opportunity to meet her.  The grass in my own yard is green and I am laying happily in the pasture. 

Ladies:  Do you experience Annual Ex-a-thon?

Truthfully Yours,
Kayren F

Abstinence and the Grape Cigarillo

The struggle is real... But I am all for it.

Truthfully yours,
Kayren F

Church Notes: Little Big Faith

I visited the Mister's church this past Sunday but here are the notes from the final part of the BIG Faith series by Rev. Bryan L. Carter of Concord Church courtesy of Chadwick McMillan. Thanks Chad!

Little Big Faith.   
Matthew 17:14-20

1. My faith can limit The Lord's work
  -going through the motions is simply not enough
  - if you don't believe god's gonna do it, don't ask him for it

2. My faith may be little but it can do a lot.
 - don't reduce the size of God....in other words, don't make your problems bigger than your God
 - have little faith in a BIG GOD anything is possible
- Mountains are represented in a figurative sense (not literal)...We have the power to move Mountains (problems) out of our life...
 - we must make a conscious choice for this kind of faith(Big Faith)..we must believe it before we see it.
- if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, nothing will be Impossible

3. my faith can have unlimited possibilities
- you have to believe God can do it.
- I have to believe I can make it through it.